How I Act Now That My Four-Year-Old Son Mimics Everything I Say and Do

My son is in a stage where he wants to be Just. Like. Me.  Everything I like, he insists that he likes.  Everything I do not like, he also does not like (and vehemently insists he has never liked).  He agrees with everything I say and mimics everything I do and it might, it was pointed out, behoove me to speak and act in a way that I would want him to mimic.

This has been harder than anticipated.

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Dear my four-year-old son!

Hi, I am your mother whom you totally idolize and constantly imitate at this point in your childhood, and if there’s one thing you need to know about me it’s that I love cauliflower and not having a complete emotional breakdown when I am asked to take a bath.

What was that thing someone just said about how I don’t normally like mushrooms??  Of COURSE I love mushrooms.  That person must be misremembering.  Everyone knows how much I love mushrooms and how I totally eat them all the time without dramatically spitting them machine-gun style into my napkin when I can feel one in my mouth.  Another thing I totally love and eat all the time is tofu because I just love things with weird, slightly slimy textures that make you feel like maybe you’re eating a phlegm-covered sheep’s eyeball.

Oh hooray. Mushrooms are my favorite.
Oh it’s mushrooms.  My favorite.

Mushrooms are the greatest, but you know what else is great are large, fast-moving insects.  Something I’m definitely not afraid of are those giant cockroach-looking palmetto bugs that are sometimes huddled around a puddle in our basement like African megafauna at a riverbank.  I love those! The reason I let out that very big gasp when I saw them was because I was SO excited to see some and the reason I didn’t want to go near them was because what if I stepped on them?  What I love even more are spiders, which is why I trap them under those giant Pyrex bowls.  If there’s one thing spiders love, it is being trapped in a potato-salad scented, makeshift Bio-Dome, and if there are two things spiders love, it is the Bio-Dome thing followed by being flushed down a toilet.

So happy to announce that this spider has found it's "forever home."
Welcome to your “forever home.”

Also, not hitting people is totally my favorite.  I really loved not hitting that businessman who let the door slam in my face while I tried to walk into the drugstore to buy allergy medication this morning.  I was so happy I didn’t hit him and I’m even more glad I didn’t cover him in dead palmetto bugs and sneeze the mushrooms I had just eaten right onto his Ralph Lauren tortoiseshell sunglasses.  Because I love being nice.

Oh, you too?  Wow, four-year-old son, we are like TWINS.

I love listening to advice from people who are sure they know what’s best for me.  Sometimes grandma has lots of good advice like this and goes, “Here’s what you should do!” and I love listening because if there’s one person who knows what I should do it’s a mildly anxious woman in her late 60’s who spends half her time telling me to iron my shirts, and the other half eating boxes of Good ‘n’ Plenty while looking at headshots of young Gregory Peck on Google Images.

(I am kidding!  I don’t think my mom knows how to use Google Images.  I assume she goes to the library and looks at Gregory Peck photos on microfiche.)

Ok, here the point goes to my mother. He was very handsome in To Kill a Mockingbird, but young Gregory Peck is freakishly, unnervingly attractive.
Ok, point goes to my mother. Young Gregory Peck is freakishly, unnervingly attractive.

I love not looking at an iPhone or iPad all the time.  And you know what else I love?  Flash cards.  Some people like the mindless distraction of iPhones or iPads, but I’d rather cultivate a type of “deep focus,” sitting alone in the living room with my alphabet flashcards and my deepest fears while listening to the beat of my own heart.  H is for Help!

Not that I have any fears to think about, because in addition to not being afraid of spiders and palmetto bugs I’m also totally not scared of rejection or abandonment or the state of the world into which I haphazardly brought you and I’m also definitely not afraid of cicadas, especially in those years when millions of them hatch and they’re all crawling like a plague through the parking lot of a Staples.

How interesting, because I ALSO would like to jump out of my skin right now.
How interesting, because I ALSO would like to jump out of my skin right now.

*long sigh*

I love peeing before I leave the house even if I don’t really feel like I have to go.  So often I am just so sure that I don’t have to go to the bathroom, but I love love love going to the bathroom anyway so that I don’t wind up crying and asking if I’m allowed to pee on the train platform in the 34th street subway station.

I love you.  Because you are fantastic, four-year-old.  Please love yourself as much as I love you even though there is literally no way you could ever understand how much that is.

I love going to bed early without making a huge fuss.  Sometimes as early as 7:30 PM.  Even in two years when you realize that most of these are lies, please know that these last two are painfully, painfully true.

 

Much love,

Your parent

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Cicada Photo Credit: Robert Engberg

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  1. Thank you so much for these posts-they make my day!! I bought 5 copies of your book and have been giving it to all my mom friends. I also gave it 5 stars on Amazon and a Goodreads and encourage fellow blog readers to do the same if you love the book and blog as much as I do. Happy night!

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      Raquel D'Apice

      Holy cow, thank you! I even forgot people good star books on goodreads and only thought of it literally a month or so ago. I’m so glad it was enjoyed and seriously, just thank you? The night has been super happy here so I hope yours is as well.

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    caroline seguin

    I LOVE your writing! Thanks for the laugh, you’re great!

  3. This should be a New Yorker piece!

  4. THANK YOU!!! You made me laugh so hard I snorted. Great way to wake up over a cup of tea. 🙂

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